Things that I Regretted

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum

Being a Muslim, we are not encourage to feel regret what had past
Even being a normal human
NO, regret is something foolish to be done
Cause we know by heart we couldn't turn back time and do what we think we must've done back then

Just a sharing on what I regret not doing haha
Cause it keep pestering me if I'm not post it here hahaha

1. Continue pursuing Taekwondo

No, not because Taekwondo originated from Korea

It's because I miss the healthy me back then when I'm still joining this sport

I still remember I missed my supposed-first tournament when I was Form 4 due to H1N1 and I'd been quarantined the whole week!! T_T

I was so so so very upset and even called my Sir whether I've to join or not

I told him I want to but he said, You're quarantine and get healthy tskkkkkkk 

Super saddddd T_T

And I told myself, I could try next year

However, my Mama  told me to rest for a year for my SPM

So I followed her advice

Don't asked me how's the result haha

Seriously I missed those damn days when I'm sweating and feels super duper healthy and youth!

And when I accepted to CFS, I was like, it's nearly 2 years without Taekwondo

But, that time I have really bad self confidence issue that caused me to not take the class

And even looks at their training with jealousy

I don't why 

Seriously don't asked me why

And people like, Seriously Shai ada black belt?

Yeah, 1st Dan and I would love to continue to 2nd, 3rd huuu

But I feel so damn fat and left behind and not fit anymore tskk sobss

A friend of mine once asked "Shai kenapa taknak sambung?"

"Ehe dah lama tinggal."

"Sayangnya hehe"

I know how's it feels like

Now, nearly 8 years without training

And remembered those hard days to get this black belt

And money spent huuuu $$$$

Who knows I could enter my 1st tournament and even go for International tournament 

Well who knows

And then I saw this pwetty woman from Turkey being so pwetty as a hijabi and she's a Taekwondo instructor woahhh

Really amazed

And I seldom practice on my own the Tae Geuk

But still don't have the urge to practice'em weekly like my Sir always told us to

But still whenever met my Sir he still got the proud-eyes looking at me (caused I'm one of the 1st batch who manage to get Black Belt within 3 years time)

Love you Sir, May Allah bless you always <3

2. Joining Kelana Siswa

I really love so damn much outdoor activities

I really enjoy getting exposed to sunlight and get in touch with grass and being wild on the field

My 1st year here in IIUM, there were lots of booth opened for registration

I went to the table and there was a sister introducing to us this society

I love how she explained the activities and stuff

But, there I still left with this bad self confidence and still compromised myself to join the society

The uniform also one of my concern cause it wasn't that long huuu

And also that time I think I was still syadid haha

The uniform still long below the buttocks and I don't know whether it was a big issue or not haha

Cause everyone will be wearing the same

And I was once wore that kind of long uniform, My Taekwondo uniform!

It was that long too and I survived wearing them at school even! Hahaha silly me padan muka

As I watched my friends went here and there under this society, God I missed outdoor activities so damn much uhukkk tskkkk

Seeing their pictures went for hiking to lots of mountain just make me cry of jealousy hahahha

Besides, I don't have this skill of socializing with people I wasn't used too

I'm too afraid but you know, you'll eventually meet new person everyday! Hahaha

Just, Love Outdoor Activities!

Yeah!

3. Learning more languages

Languages, the beauty of a culture

I did survived my Japanese I language class and did not continue the Japanese II

Cause time constrain lol

I figured IIUM opened lots of language classes other than Japanese class, such as French, Hangul, Mandarin, Arabic classes

I was intended to attend Arabic class cause I missed Arabic classes so much

The feeling of reading Quran wihile knowing the meaning is kinda like a moment sent from Heaven!

I missed those days when I learn Arabic back in school and CFS

Arabic is just too beautiful, the language it is

As for Mandarin, cause we live with Chinese and Indian also

Knowing others language and who knows in the future I can have a chat with my Chinese neighbor (taman sebelah ehe)

And to see their happy face when I try to speak Chinese hoho

But yeah missed that too

Juggling with too many things in a semester caused me to unable to even look at this additional knowledge sad isn't it

And also as for Japanese, one day I would like to visit Japan and I wouldn't want it too be just Kawaii, Arigatou, Gomenasai, Konichiwa and etc that normal conversation ehe

4. Track

Zubaidah once said, one a runner, always a runner

Like I said before, I love sweating

Cause it makes me feel healthy and youth

The reason is that I don't know how to participate when I was in CFS haha (do we have Track game during that time?haha)

And when in Kuantan, I already become too embarrassed to join cause I'm not use to having Bros at the side of the line even as judges huuu

It was just too 

OMG haha 

You know when you run and everything on you will shake OMG I don't believe I said this huhuu

I was like, I don't want Bros to see I'm shaking everything while I'm running

Cause it just too inappropriate huuuu

There was one time when I run and the bros are there as judges I was like I thought there'll be no bros

Oh god

This is just too huaaaaaa

And I took the route where bros unlikely to see I'm shaking huuu

But still they were there huuuuu

Ahhhhh that pretty much everything haha

Maybe there's more haha

This list maybe maybe maybe some of them I still can pursue even after graduating degree life

It just need self confidence, time, money and determination

This might be just my excuses of the things I regretted 

Just too afraid to try meeting and do something new

Guess I was also lack of motivation and determination even to pursue the things I love the most

And also I don't pretty much like socializing but I love outdoor activities haha

Ironically

Maybe I'm ambivert? Haha (still don't recognize myself sighhh)

That's all :)

I bet maybe sometime in the future I'll be pursuing something different or new

Shall we? Ehe

Get in touch with nature

Listening to the symphony of the forest

Witnessing the beauty of the mountains

God, there're just too much to see :)

P/s: sampai sudah tak pegi caving huuu sobss. Da nak grad ni takde yang nak teman ke sobss