Sunday, May 21, 2017

Things that I Regretted

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum

Being a Muslim, we are not encourage to feel regret what had past
Even being a normal human
NO, regret is something foolish to be done
Cause we know by heart we couldn't turn back time and do what we think we must've done back then

Just a sharing on what I regret not doing haha
Cause it keep pestering me if I'm not post it here hahaha


1. Continue pursuing Taekwondo

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No, not because Taekwondo originated from Korea
It's because I miss the healthy me back then when I'm still joining this sport
I still remember I missed my supposed-first tournament when I was Form 4 due to H1N1 and I'd been quarantined the whole week!! T_T
I was so so so very upset and even called my Sir whether I've to join or not
I told him I want to but he said, You're quarantine and get healthy tskkkkkkk 
Super saddddd T_T

And I told myself, I could try next year
However, my Mama  told me to rest for a year for my SPM
So I followed her advice
Don't asked me how's the result haha

Seriously I missed those damn days when I'm sweating and feels super duper healthy and youth!

And when I accepted to CFS, I was like, it's nearly 2 years without Taekwondo
But, that time I have really bad self confidence issue that caused me to not take the class
And even looks at their training with jealousy
I don't why 
Seriously don't asked me why

And people like, Seriously Shai ada black belt?
Yeah, 1st Dan and I would love to continue to 2nd, 3rd huuu
But I feel so damn fat and left behind and not fit anymore tskk sobss
A friend of mine once asked "Shai kenapa taknak sambung?"
"Ehe dah lama tinggal."
"Sayangnya hehe"
I know how's it feels like
Now, nearly 8 years without training
And remembered those hard days to get this black belt
And money spent huuuu $$$$

Who knows I could enter my 1st tournament and even go for International tournament 
Well who knows

And then I saw this pwetty woman from Turkey being so pwetty as a hijabi and she's a Taekwondo instructor woahhh
Really amazed

And I seldom practice on my own the Tae Geuk
But still don't have the urge to practice'em weekly like my Sir always told us to
But still whenever met my Sir he still got the proud-eyes looking at me (caused I'm one of the 1st batch who manage to get Black Belt within 3 years time)
Love you Sir, May Allah bless you always <3


2. Joining Kelana Siswa

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I really love so damn much outdoor activities
I really enjoy getting exposed to sunlight and get in touch with grass and being wild on the field
My 1st year here in IIUM, there were lots of booth opened for registration
I went to the table and there was a sister introducing to us this society
I love how she explained the activities and stuff
But, there I still left with this bad self confidence and still compromised myself to join the society
The uniform also one of my concern cause it wasn't that long huuu
And also that time I think I was still syadid haha
The uniform still long below the buttocks and I don't know whether it was a big issue or not haha
Cause everyone will be wearing the same
And I was once wore that kind of long uniform, My Taekwondo uniform!
It was that long too and I survived wearing them at school even! Hahaha silly me padan muka
As I watched my friends went here and there under this society, God I missed outdoor activities so damn much uhukkk tskkkk
Seeing their pictures went for hiking to lots of mountain just make me cry of jealousy hahahha

Besides, I don't have this skill of socializing with people I wasn't used too
I'm too afraid but you know, you'll eventually meet new person everyday! Hahaha



Just, Love Outdoor Activities!
Yeah!


3. Learning more languages


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Languages, the beauty of a culture
I did survived my Japanese I language class and did not continue the Japanese II
Cause time constrain lol
I figured IIUM opened lots of language classes other than Japanese class, such as French, Hangul, Mandarin, Arabic classes
I was intended to attend Arabic class cause I missed Arabic classes so much
The feeling of reading Quran wihile knowing the meaning is kinda like a moment sent from Heaven!
I missed those days when I learn Arabic back in school and CFS
Arabic is just too beautiful, the language it is

As for Mandarin, cause we live with Chinese and Indian also
Knowing others language and who knows in the future I can have a chat with my Chinese neighbor (taman sebelah ehe)
And to see their happy face when I try to speak Chinese hoho
But yeah missed that too
Juggling with too many things in a semester caused me to unable to even look at this additional knowledge sad isn't it

And also as for Japanese, one day I would like to visit Japan and I wouldn't want it too be just Kawaii, Arigatou, Gomenasai, Konichiwa and etc that normal conversation ehe


4. Track

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Zubaidah once said, one a runner, always a runner
Like I said before, I love sweating
Cause it makes me feel healthy and youth
The reason is that I don't know how to participate when I was in CFS haha (do we have Track game during that time?haha)
And when in Kuantan, I already become too embarrassed to join cause I'm not use to having Bros at the side of the line even as judges huuu
It was just too 
OMG haha 
You know when you run and everything on you will shake OMG I don't believe I said this huhuu

I was like, I don't want Bros to see I'm shaking everything while I'm running
Cause it just too inappropriate huuuu

There was one time when I run and the bros are there as judges I was like I thought there'll be no bros
Oh god
This is just too huaaaaaa
And I took the route where bros unlikely to see I'm shaking huuu
But still they were there huuuuu



Ahhhhh that pretty much everything haha
Maybe there's more haha

This list maybe maybe maybe some of them I still can pursue even after graduating degree life
It just need self confidence, time, money and determination

This might be just my excuses of the things I regretted 

Just too afraid to try meeting and do something new
Guess I was also lack of motivation and determination even to pursue the things I love the most

And also I don't pretty much like socializing but I love outdoor activities haha
Ironically
Maybe I'm ambivert? Haha (still don't recognize myself sighhh)

That's all :)

I bet maybe sometime in the future I'll be pursuing something different or new

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Shall we? Ehe


Get in touch with nature
Listening to the symphony of the forest
Witnessing the beauty of the mountains
God, there're just too much to see :)


P/s: sampai sudah tak pegi caving huuu sobss. Da nak grad ni takde yang nak teman ke sobss



Saturday, May 20, 2017

Look over here

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum

No please don't actually haha

Classmate 131iotechies tengah duk main,,



Bagi aku game ni scary haha
To know how people viewing you
And to compare how you view yourself

Hmmm

Some are whattt?? Is this me haha
Makes me laugh
Or ouhh I knew it she'll describe me this way

It's okay to know how people describe you
So that you'll discover things that unexpected hoho

But I didn't "Like" guys tweet cause I don't wanna know how hey describe me
That could be much scarier tho haha

That's all XD

P/S: updating while still have lil bit more editing to thesis hihuuuuu 

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

Last Gathering

Bismillahirrahmanirarhim
Assalamualaikum,,

So, here it is, our last gathering
Family Day at Kempville, Kampung Kempadang
Had a blast and a lil bit sad

Perpisahan yang mengkhianati pertemuan
The day finally approaching
Slowly but surely
God I don't know if I'm ready or not hukkk

We started our gathering with BBQ night
So we prepared the night together

Team Function bancuh air (p/s: I'm here)

The most function team - the foooooddddd!!!!

That night well, emm,,tetiba takde mood selera nak makan
Sebab ada orang tu cakap aku gemuk kayhh -_-
The left over are too too many MashaAllah
Tapi da taklarat nak makan

Performance from Ichang-chan
Poem recitation by Hakim Hood and Fitri (during her speech)
And we had Pali semat as our MC that night

This is Aryan who loves to wink his eye awww such a handsome boy hikhik
The next day, we had outdoor game
We started with kayaking and mendayung sampan?? haha

With Salma, Syaz and Inani

For me who sooooo afraid of water, congrats to me (pat on the shoulder)

Yeah, that's me hanging 

Fadhil was like "Shaiii, pandang sini"
"Macam mana nak pandangggg????"
I was shivering maybe because my legs and hands are not that strong huu

Before this, I also played this hanging over water game and shouted like crazy coz there were Ruhan and Izzat who followed KakTen and me from behind
The ropes bergoyang like crazy and I shouted like crazy tooooo huuuu T_T
Please don't do this to me
Below is the water that I afraid so much
I don't know the depth, and it's stinks
I don't want to fall coz I'm sooo afraid I will drown (will someone save me? ehemm)
I don't know how to SWIM
Sobssss


And we rested for a while ?? haha
Under the tree while drinking coconut water taken freshly from trees
Cut opened by bros and drink right straight from the fruit w/out feeling ashamed haha

And then I saw this plank game
Remember the time I played this with Tasneem and took our victorious picture where we both successfully balance the plank wohoohohoho
And this time with Salma and Liz

Played with with Salma and Liz unknowingly Fadhil took our picture haha
And played sitting volleyball?? haha

Nice Syaz heheh
And did I mentioned I also couldn't control my hands' strength
I replied the ball that time and it hit Faris's jambul haha
And also some drama of course! by me haha

Below are the pictures of ramai ramai heheh
But some are not here in the pictures huuu
Rasanya bole kot after exam amek last pictures probably semua orang ada ekk




He's (Hakim) ready to jump, he jumped yeah but he's wearing short soo,,,









Ni selepas ditapis sebab banyak gambar Hakim bergolek golek melompat depan kamera haihh
In our class, he is one guy yg suka buat hal dia sukahati dia
Despite ramai yg marah haha
Ada jugak gambar orang rejam dia dengan cawan sebab bergolek depan kamera
Tapi sebab dia pakai short sooo,,emmm

And finally, I don't know we still had that Team Envi fond haha
So, the pictures of us Team Envi hikhukkkk
Also some of us huhuu


That BBQ Night on the veranda 


And under the trees,,wohoo Envi sangat haha

That's a wrap.
Thank you so much for the memory guys
The pictures that holding memories
Might remain forever
Exist forever
Hope left with good footprint and heartprint??? haha

May we meet again somewhere sometime in the future
May Allah bless us all

Thank you for being pieces of my memories
Nearly completing The Me that I was searching for

All the best for you guys' future plan
May Allah ease everything
:)
:)
:')


P/S: Writing this while listening to "That's What Friends Are For" by Dionne Warwick T_T
P/S 2: Kawen jangan lupa jemput tauuu

Thursday, May 11, 2017

My Story

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum,,

Sometimes I thought my life is a bit boring
Not a bit, literally borrrrr-ringgg

Like hehhhh no adventure at all

Then, suddenly I realized that yeah, something did happened, not once but few times but not frequent

There was one time (please don't tell my Mama if u happen to know her. She'll definitely get mad at me haha)
I went to Kg Raja, Besut for my friend's wedding
I never have d thought to go coz it's far and I don't really know the place plus I wasn't that close to her
But she did texted me personally yeah, personally asking if I come
Huuuu feel misrable and terhutang budi sebab dia pernah tolong dulu waktu Intern, so I went

I asked my friend Yin for help how to get there where to stop and so on
And surprisingly, Yin also know my friend haha what a small world

So I ride on a bus around 12am something coz there wasn't any earlier ticket left (please don't tell my Mama too huu)
Then, I asked my other friend to pick me up then she agreed
But, sadly, she didn't pick up my call huaaaaa
I called her like crazy so many times
And then here I was left alone at Perhentian Kg Raja with nowhere to goooo T_T

I couldn't stop calling my friend
I was so afraid
Clueless
Helpless
Scared
Nobody there
And sometimes passing by cars
So scarryyyyyyy
So dark
The place was total alien to me

Then I decided to walk
To? Anywhere where I will feel safe

The thought to cry? Regret?
Yeah it came but that time I know it won't solve anything

Suddenly, Allah helped me by sending me a thought
"Find masjid"
Yeah I google mapped it and nearest mosque is around 500m distance
Still walking distance so I walked
Along the road not a single soul and dark and scary huuu

I seek refugee at mosque and feel damn safe but still insecure coz the mosque is way too open.
Then I try to sleep for a little while until Fajr, but couldn't sleep well

Then after fajr, my friend picked me up and say sorry to me huuu

Yin told me "Mujur shai terfikir pergi masjid"
"Kannnn huuuu takut ingat balik pagi tadi"

Yeah sure, this is my scariest moment ever hahahahaha

(Mari tukar bahasa pula)

Pengalaman memalukan hahahaha

Baru tadi lunch, terbuat jatuh hand soap bergolekla dia ke tengah laluan orang ramai dan berhenti betul2 depan sorang brader ni,
"Terkejut kita" kata brader tadi

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Kau kenapa Lyana kalut sangat???? adehh laaa


Hari tu pulak terbuat jatuh telur atas kepala orang
Telur ya! Jatuh atas kepala orang
Oh telur tu dalam karton yg 12
Jatuh atas kepala pekerja tu, and jatuh ke lantai dan pecah
Tragis

Brader tu siap jerit "aduh" dan masih mengaduh sakit sampai la aku beransur dari situ
Malu gila. Sedehnya jugak kena bayar telur yg dah pecah tu huuu
Lepas tu merengek cari Liza huuu

Trauma betul. Ntah kenapa kalut semacam.

Hari tu kat rumah Salma.

Alhamdulillah waktu sister night baru ni takde kejadian memalukan.
Oh, tersilap nama kuih jela. Tu jela.
Huu,,,

Sometimes, I think I have destructive hands.
Yeah.
Anything I touched will crush! Bhahahahahaha
Hukkk sobss

P/s: Kata Nad, aku waris perangai suka jatuh barang ni dari dia huhuhuhu,,Nad please take this back T_T

Thursday, March 30, 2017

Walimah Hasanah & Zulhilmi

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum

First thing first,,
Tahniah Hasanah dan pasangan, Zulhilmi
Sah menjadi suami isteri 25 Mac 2017 dengan sekali lafaz
Barakallahu lakuma wa jama'a bainakuma fi khair


Ini Hasanah Mahzan, our classmate. Cantekk kann hikss

Pengantin dan classmates 131iotechies

Pengantin dan Parents :)

So, we hijacked the pelamin sementara pengantin tengah makan
Amek berkat katanya hikss




Then, gambar kat pelamin, tapi takde bros (sorry)

Lentok doh pale Hasanah haha

Zauj Hasanah ni pemalu orangnya
Mujurla Hasanah jenis selamba

Then we went makan keropok lekor kat rumah Salma
Sedap ya ampunnnnn and air buah campuran & fresh orange oishii hehe
My first time here tho ehe
Lepas tu buat drama lol


Sesi makan

Dengan parents Salma (muka I masih control malu kejadian memalukan haihh)

Then saw this kat blog Salma haha, stalked me and siap screenshot hahaha
Pembetulan: yang jatuh tu mangkuk and yg saya nak selamatkan tu ialah gelas kaca huhuuu
Alhamdulillah takde yang pecah fiuhhh tapi maluuuu sobss
Kisah nak tertumpahkan air dari gelas tu pon memalukan sobss
Blur sangat aku ni sampai bro pon duk usik sobss huuu maluuu

Next stop, Pantai Batu Buruk
Subhanallah, cantekkkk sangat pantai ni
Tapi sedeh takleh mandi celup kaki pon sebab air tengah pasang takut basah





Kami meneruskan perjalanan lagi sampai Kemaman
Berhenti solat kat Masjid Geliga
Bro dapat makan free
Haha sister malu pi la kedai makan
Lepas tu bro sambung ngeteh
Kata mama perut black hole blake hahaha

Safely arrived at 12am alhamdulillah
Keluar 7.30 singgah Paklah dulu, sampai 12 malam not bad laa hahah

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal
Selesai lagi sorang
Next berjujuk doh orang beratur
Mohon inform awal
Nak book tarikh and tiket lol heheh
Memana yang convenient utk pergi inshaAllah akan cuba hadirkan diri :)
Memana yang sedang berusaha ke arah itu, selamat maju jaya ya
Memana yg single seperti saya jangan sedeh kayhh, jodoh anda ada cumanya mungkin dia tersilap alamat sedang mencari awak lagi so doa la semoga dia jumpa jalan hikhok

P/s: Esok ada presentation kena baca Law tapi taksentuh lagi kbai


Spontaneous

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum

More like On the Spot Planning Leads to On the Spot Action
Haha
Did this last time
Were amazing hahaha
I enjoy "enjoying your present moment"
Oh yeah.

That first:
Out for lunch with Inani & Liza
Then, Inani saw a post saying that that day was the last day for Pameran Buku Popular at Zenith
So, she was like "Jom pergi"
Oh yeah, letssssssss

Dengan selekehnya well who cares haha

And kekonon taknak sambar apa apa
I was like, nak beli pen je
Sekali,,
A coloring book with 6 color pencils & 6 color crayons with additional daily promotion RM12 36 color pencils. 36!
Usually it'll cost RM 21.90!
Wahahaha sambarrrr


Emm,,,actually this book was meant for parents with children
But emmm I'm not married yet so I've no kids
So, I just ignore "Me & My Little One" hahaha
At least this is one of my way to distress ehehehehe


Then the next time:
"Nak makan mana dinner?"
"Nak dinner tapi taknak keluar duit"
"Hmm saya tahu tempat mana boleh dinner takyah keluar duit"
Spontaneously I looked up at Nad and said "Jom makan kat rumah Nad"
Jommm hiksss

Soooo,,,there we went
Takmalu betul kan hahaha

Kutip sayur fresh dari kebun

Depan sekali ni tuan umah hehe 

Tapi tuan rumah da ajak jugak kita turutkan saja :P

Kutip sayur kat kebun Nad
Tengok Law of the Jungle kat Smart TV umah Nad
Mama Nad masak Asam Pedas Ikan Tongkol dengan sayur bendi kegemaranku dengan bauan daun kesum wahhhh feels like home
Actually takbaik lagi sakit perut tapi boleh tahan menambah makan hikhik
Shai ni rindu masakan rumah je ni
Hikhik ye kott
Sikit lagi mama sikit lagi nanti Lana balik tolong ngemas umah tolong masak eh

Jumpa kembar anak sedara Nad first time
4 orang dah anak sedara dia

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal
Alhamdulillah
Taktahu nak cakap apa lagi dah
Semoga Allah memberkati semuanya ;)

P/s:
Sometimes benda yang plan on the spot, buat on the spot la menjadi kan..yg plan lelama payah nau nak kasi jadi haha

Tuesday, March 21, 2017

TERIMA KASIH KAKAK :)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
Assalamualaikum


Been wanting to post this since ages hahahaha
Mujurla AlQalamiy nak buat Zine
Akhirnya tertulis juga muehehehe

So, here it is,,,


Aku pernah berjanji dengan diriku yang aku takkan menyusahkan orang lain.
Sekurang kurangnya jika tak mampu membantu.
Dan aku juga pernah berjanji yang aku tak akan putus asa.
Sungguh besar murka Allah nauzubillah.

“…dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir” (Yusuf:12)

Tapi malam itu semuanya berubah.
Mula mula datang rasa putus asa, aku menangis sungguh sungguh
Sebab takmahunya aku menyusahkan orang lain
Dah lama tak menangis macam tu
Aku malu nak menyusahkan orang lain
Boleh sampai satu tahap yang aku takboleh nak angkat muka pon

Jadi malam itu, Allah menguji dengan dua benda ini
Putus asa dan ketidakmahuan untuk menyusahkan orang

“Jap kitorang bincang”
Kencang darah aku baca mesej ni
Bersama deras air mata
Kerna aku tahu hujung perbincangan itu
“Shai siap siap. Kitorang dah otw”
Makin teruk aku menangis

Apa semua ni?
Kenapa gigih sangat?
Terharu teruk.
Dahla tempat program tu jauh. Malam pulak tu.

Entah kenapa malam tu jujurnya air mata.
Mata merah bengkak. Takboleh jadi kena cover nih.

Masuk kereta, aku cuba bertahan senyum dan buat biasa saja
“Akak tahu, saya ingat takjadi dah nak datang. Saya nak pass kat orang lain dah kerja saya nih”
“Ehh mana boleh. Kita takcukup orang shai”
Dan waktu tu aku tahu yang setiap orang sangat penting peranannya walaupon cuma JK kecil.
Dan waktu tu aku cakap dengan diri aku, Lyana kau kena buat elok elok. Kena usaha buat yang terbaik. Jangan menyia nyiakan usaha dorang ambik kau memalam buta jejauh macam nih.

Terharu teruk. Ulang sekali lagi.
Menangis teruk. Sangat buruk.
Tapi kakak, kamu telah mencetuskan sesuatu dalam diri ini
Semangat untuk terus berusaha dan terus bangun walau jatuh berkali kali.
Tahu juga kakak, selepas kejadian malam itu, ana berjanji dengan diri ana untuk terus berusaha untuk tsabat dalam jalan ini.
Banyaknya pahala akak J

Terima kasih atas susah payah
Terima kasih juga atas senyuman manis menyambut ana walaupun akak penat
Terima kasih kerana menanam tsabat dalam diri ana
Terima kasih mengajar ana erti tadhiyyah

Semoga berjiran di sorga inshaAllah J