Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Pembuka

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

Assalamualaikum

Hai semua
Tengah sakit kepala
Hmmmm
Beban 
Bertimpa terus atas kepala
Sebab tu sakit

Bukan apa
Kena basuh tadi
Hahahaha
Betul
Kadang perlu orang yang tak kenal kita untuk menyedarkan kita

Remember last time I said that I wanna be friend with Chinese?
Yeah, rather than friend, he's a Research Officer 
A Dr of course
Because he did his PhD already 

Bukan nak cerita pasal orangnya
Tapi tentang yang dia kongsi,,,hmmm 'basuh' aku tadi

An eye, mind opener

He said he pressured his student and not all lecturers are like that
Some need us to initiate things

I can see that me, myself are not both, I'm not an initiator and not the type yang rajin membaca search ambik tahu duhhh
Teruk kan?

Dia kata, you are student bachelor yang nak graduate
Bukan lab assistant
You are not worker here but rather a student
And what a student do?
Study!
Learn!
Get to know things!

But sadly I'm too lazy and just depend on others to feed me up! Deng!!

He also asked easy basic questions, but also I cannot answer them!
Because I just learn for the sake of exam. Deng again!

You cannot just know how to run, how to do the experiment and all
But rather you must know why you did that and how it works (mechanisms)

I forgot alllllllllllllll I did learnt back then at UIA
God save meeeeee!!!! hukhukhuk *nangis kat bucu katil*

Like he asked secondary science level punya soklan pon takboleh jawab
Shame Lyana, shame!!
Janganla sebab benci subjek atau tajuk tu, taknak amek tahu langsung
Haa kan da menyesal kena kat batang hidung sendiri hmmm

And ada satu penyakit, selalu sangat lupa, cepat sangat lupa
Baca tapi lupa 
Baca tapi tak ingat
Samar samar je memori tu hmmm

Lepas tu bila kena tanya, mati kutu tak tahu nak jawab apa
Haihhh,,terkulat kulat
Kena banyak makan kismis kot hmmm

It does feels like I wasted my time huuu
Feels like hasn't learnt anything
Wasting everything 
Everything
Useless
Yeah, that's the word

But,,,,emmm,,,rather than succumb to this, cry a river about this, better I take this as you know, a starter to start change myself to a better person
I told this to my girl and she said, "You're learning. That's what intern for"
Yeah,,I forgot
So, this is my learning process
The feeling that I must encounter with some action 

Banyak yang dia kongsi
Sebab tu bagus sembang dengan orang berpengalaman
Banyak ilmu, banyak yang dapat dikongsi

*Tapi tadi bukan sembang la, lecture hehe

Hari tu my Co-SV ada sembang tentang future dengan aku
Ehh siapa kata aku takdak wawasan tak fikir masa depan
Aku fikir tauuu
Cumanya aku taktahu macam mana nak kongsi sebab aku tak yakin tak pasti hmmm

Sambung master atau kerja dulu
Dr kata rugi kalau keje dulu baru sambung
Alang alang tengah muda ni sambung la belajar terus sampai PhD

Banyak yang nak kena fikir sebenarnya
Banyak sangat

Siapa taknak sambung belajar?
In fact, kalau nak capai impian aku tu, one of the way is aku kena sambung belajar dulu

Bukan nak kata tak bersyukur, aku bersyukur je dapat experience buat extraction ni tapi sebab tak minat hati jadi berat sikit
Masih bertahan 
Jangan sebab niat nak dapat A je paksa diri buat
Niat untuk ilmu, belajar
Kadang niat lari jugak, tapi tahu ilmu tu priceless
Tara ilmu lagi tinggi dari harta

Banyak benda buat aku fikir berat dan kena belajar fikir jauh
Mungkin sebab dah terbiasa dimanjakan aku jadi tak biasa bila kena survive sendiri

Resolusi sangat banyak
Ya Tuhan, terima kasih temukan aku dengan hamba hamba Mu yang hebat ini
Terima kasih sebab tujukan rezeki aku untuk belajar dengan mereka
Walau tadi rasa berat nak menangis semua, tapi bila fikir inilah nikmat, terus dapat tukar jadi benda baik

Tapi sebab hamba ni lemah, terkulai jugak ehe
Terima kasih Allah sebab masih sayang hamba ini :)



Esok pagi bangun kena bersemangat ye Lyana ;)

Lilly Singh a.k.a. Superwoman once said "You have to fight your fear and it is yourself!"
Well Superwoman, you hit me right!! wuuuu wuuuuu T_T



Allah kan dah kata,
Berdoalah kepada Dia sesungguhnya Dia sangat dekat :')

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